Theres me thinking things were improving,ok still not sleeping great waking up with night mares, but had a good day Tuesday out with a mate plane spotting being a geek, Wednesday morning ok

then wham!!! go to Jamies school for a parent evening for his school trip to the Somme battlefields and i get so claustrophobic, im physically retching, dripping with sweat. i fight my way through it, but at the end they play a video of the trenches and i start to cry. I tried to hide it but how well i dont know

Ruth never said anything but she kept giving me fully looks all evening.... last night i slept for ..... 1hr!!!!